Why thank you for stopping by here! How on earth has it taken me over 6 months to write another blog post? Seems criminal, being as I'm self employed and doing my damnedest to get my brand out there, while the business moguls of the world rave about the benefits of blogging! Truth is I'm just like the rest of you, trying to squeeze too much into what time I have and, well, i'll be honest - a lot of the time I flap around wondering where on earth to start. When you're a creative/self-employed/single parentdoing their best to 'juggle life' type like myself its sometimes difficult to focus. And so, I'll behave myself and get to the point of this post. Where did the past 6 months go?
And so to spur me into writing, I'm going to cover each of these topics in a little more detail over the coming weeks. But today I'll elaborate a little more on the long awaited trip home!
journeying back HOME to new zealand
The build-up was big! It had been 4 long years away from my homeland and family. My 4 year old son never knew my people and they except for the occasional WhatsApp msg never knew him, it was time! We spent 2 wonderful months soaking up amazing places, reconnecting with old faces (as in long term friends and family :)) and stepping into brand new spaces. [Have I actually missed my calling as a poet?]. Along the way we spent time in Hong Kong and Brisbane Australia, topping up on more places, faces and spaces. And in summary there's nothing quite like leaving the stresses of the day to day life behind, soaking up familiar sights, sharing food, booze (obviously drinking responsibly) and good times with absolute gems of humans. I was reminded of how completely stunning New Zealand's landscape is and embodied a brand new appreciation for the kiwi culture, I may be biased, but i'll just speak my truth here; folk from NZ are generally 'warm, down to earth, practical, have a 'can-do' attitude, sarcastic and unbelievably welcoming sorts'. They're just really nice people, and it may come as no surprise that I feel completely at home there! I can't help but feel a little egotistical by saying that, but that's my opinion and i'm allowed it. After living exclusively for the past 5 years in the UK, my return to the homeland made me realise how culturally different NZ is from the UK. I could talk for eons on this topic, but I won't. If you see me in passing and want to hear my musings then feel free to engage me, I love a random natter! Or perhaps you want to get a little deeper now, I did a quick google search on 'Traits of a New Zealander' - its a pretty good fit in my opinion.
My son got to properly appreciate the fact he's part of something much bigger. Keeping in touch with home on the other side of the world with all those hours difference, with a wee one makes building relationships difficult. It'll come as no surprise that being so far away from home is challenging, and so to be a part of those moments shared between my son, family and friends, i'll forever cherish the times we shared.
Doing a trip like that with my son and seeing his curiosity with all the new places and experiences was UNBELIEVABLE! He'd seen a world map before and in an abstract sense knew of other countries. But going to the airport, checking in, saying goodbye to suitcases, immigration, security, boarding a flight with a bunch of strangers and sitting on a seat which had its own screen - Fun times, all those aspects of travelling i'd clearly numbed to (or was that from too many hours with my butt on an aeroplane?), I'm so greatful for regaining some childlike curiosity over things I had been clearly taking for granted! Thankfully poppit was a happy wee traveller, as we rode 9 planes, multiple trains, 1 ferry, a kayak, a quad bike, a tractor, more swimming flotation devices and automobiles than i'll ever remember and the odd ride in a trailer! (aka, birth right of a part kiwi kid). The joys of travel during summer right! The jetlag was intense at the time with 5-6hr middle of the night wakeful bouts....but time is a healer and I've recovered from the those nights :). Yes poppit too!!
It was such a privilege to deepen relationships with friends and family too. 5yrs ago i'd had the most amazing pregnancy and labour, I enjoyed learning how to be a mum on the other side of the world despite the myriad of things many mums distress over like feeding my baby through a syringe for 3 weeks because his wee mouth was too small to 'latch-on' to laying in bed wide awake with a full bladder but not wanting to move for fear of waking the wee-one, living on the 3rd floor with no lift in a concrete jungle and desperately trying to build a supportive community around me. A few months in feelings of anxiety crept in and my relationship broke down, I accepted I couldn't return to NZ to live then used all that energy to move and build a brand new life in Burntisland, Fife. 2 years on, still in Burntisland I have the MOST wonderful friends around me, a natural skincare business, Freerwithnia (co-teaching Nia joyful movement with one of the most amazing humans i'll ever know) a happy boy almost ready to start school, feelings of wanting to let 'love in' and a warm settled feeling of my life here! Returning home with all that under my belt actually made me feel like the best version of the person i'd always been and i'd been given a chance to show up for myself and my son. And although it never always felt this way, I without a doubt believe it took all those challenges to get me to that person. So yeah, bringing all that into my old friendships made for some pretty amazing conversations (with the trusty support of food and responsibly drunken booze!).
I did come back with a load of inspiration for new natural skincare products though, so watch this space for news of NZ infused cold process soaps, and because Scotland is home for now i'm going to go crazy and blend that in too. NZ meets Scotland on the soap front....exciting times!
And so, we had a WONDERFUL time. Friends here in Scotland were concerned I wouldn't want to come back but I did come back and the truth is it feels like home here now and that's a good feeling.
Its difficult to choose best pics but as you'll see, the wee man in my life is well and truly the object of my affection in this line up! Thanks again for stopping by.